Monday, November 17, 2008
3:49 AM
Whatever happened in the past seemed worth it!
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Stressing up, losing temper, venting anger, feeling really lousy, feeling not myself these few months seemed worth it. I finally found out something that i have never notice before. The real reason why I am not able to let go of the pain I suffered last year under the hands of Mrs Leong. What are the lessons I need to extract from that one whole painful year?I can't deny that now I'm stronger able to stand up and speak up for myself. No more being trapped in my lil' self, silent and vulnerable. The real reason I'm so hurt was due to the reason of being guilty. Guilty of leaving those innocence beings under the evil and crazy lady. I used to take in all the craps for those children. Being taught to lie over and over again just to claim the credits for herself. Is that the real reason why people set up preschool? To be recognized and showing off your status? I hope she finally come to realize sooner or later, money is not everything. She has to stop running away from the truth and learn to treasure sincerity. I almost went to depression because I have millions of things playing in my heart. I wanna so much get out but how about the children whom I finally managed to get them settled? How can I be so heartless to leave them? I'm finally breathing fresh air. How are they doing in there? I can't help to think about them. I wanted so badly to visit them but I can't. I finally able to forgive myself. It's all in my mind. When my current principal asked me if i trusted her. I replied 50/50. She cried so bitterly. I didn't know I've hurt her so badly. I could actually sense sincerity and care from her but dare not receive them and chose to block them. I'm so afraid to trust these "principals". They gave me the sense of manipulation. People working under them are like puppets hanging on a string. Probably I'm thinking way too much. I would really love to trust people again, but i guess the wound has not been completely healed. However when my parents came down and thanking me and the changes they saw in their children. I find it a satisfaction. Seeing my children being so confident and being themselves, I find whatever gets me here seemed worthwhile. I am able to make a difference in these children's life. More to come!
Mariah told
her story ...
3:49 AM c",)
Saturday, November 15, 2008
5:06 AM
Parent-teacher's meeting
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It was really memoriable.Parents took their time off just coming down despite knowing their children's strengths and weaknesses. They came personally to thank. I am really happy that their children enjoyed comin to school. Its really a satisfaction that all my hardwork actually paid off. I am glad that my parents were very supportive of everything that we did. So sweet of them!
Mariah told
her story ...
5:06 AM c",)