Wow, i'm so grateful to be able to come this far. The route that i chose was sure a bumpy one but it was all worthwhile and i wouldn't have made it
without the great support from my dearest family. I sincerely thank you Mr Yap for taking me in when i was a nobody and gave the trust to make a difference
the children's life in his centre. And of course to Mrs Leong, though i went through 'hell' in her centre but still it made more wiser in every decision
i take. Without meeting these people, i wouldn't be right now living my dreams!
I grew up watching 7th heaven and through this show, lessons can be learnt as the show is about the real life situations.
Well not forgetting doing an impersonation of Michael Jordan left me speechless. Gosh i can't believe i did that. Haha! He is totally a legend in basketball!
Chicago Bulls all the way!
Keanu Reeves and Sandra, all time favourite onscreen couple since Speed was aired on TV in 1996.
I fell in love with Keanu since then and I was like 9 years old.
I started working in Student Care when I was only 17. I spent most of my time with the children there. I got the chance to know
each and everyone of them and care for them. I accepted them for who they are and they accepted me for who i am! Umpteen memories
in that place. I learnt that being a teacher does not only mean imparting knowledge itself but caring for them,give them the
spirit and courage to do well in their lfe! I have succeeded in gaining trust from all of my students and I gained respect from them!
Now they've gone their separate routes however they are always in my prayers. Best wishes from me always! Love you all!
♥Wish Upon A Star*
*Graduate from My Diploma in Early Childhood*
*Driving Licence*
*Enrol in Bachelor in Early Childhood*
*Set up my own Kindergarten*
*Travel to Paris*
*If wishing upon a star really works, please bless my family!*
*Life is wonderful by Jason Mraz*
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
and all I can do is listen. I'm afraid I would utter the wrong words to hurt her deeper. It all started while we were watching the Ellen show. It was a commercial on Behind the closed door that will be showing soon on Channel 5. Venetta Lopez was saying that most cases that the Tan Tock Seng handled were men being abused by their wives. I commented, damn! What are the guys doing man! Mum cut in saying your brother is one of them. Everytime get bullied by his wife. She apparently poured out her feelings. I've always thought that I'm the unlucky one to hear all these unpleasant events happened. But now I think of it, I'm lucky to have my mother confiding in me. I felt helpless unable to comfort her in any way. How I wish I could remove all those unhappy memories and worries from her or ease her pain. Allah please guide us to the right direction.
Mariah told
her story ...
1:06 AM c",)
Sunday, June 01, 2008
4:40 AM
2 days after they left!
:
It was my younger sister's birthday. The scene when my brother handed my sister he gift kept playing in my head. I knew that it'll be last time we're ever going to have him in the family potrait when we have any occassion. When we were celebrating, I felt a great loss and I'm sure all felt the same. Especially my mum. She was teasing my dad and she said she had to if not, not fun! I know what she meant by that. Our very first celebration without our brother. I had to hold back my tears. Their room is left untouched. I was crazily hoping that time could go back and bring my brother back. But I find myself silly as I know that it's not going to happen. Just yesterday I wanted to sms my brother to ask how he is but snapped out of it thinking about the day that he left. I suddenly hated him. I found myself choosing to hate him despite knowing his own difficulties. I felt so childish. All I can say is that you can never cut family ties but you can only strenghten them. I love my family no matter what happens. I've asked GOD to forgive them for me as I hadn't had the heart to do so. Please GOD help us through this ordeal. Actually fact is that I miss you so much brother and of course Sheyrin too. Be happy wherever you are. My prayers are with you and your family.
Mariah told
her story ...
4:40 AM c",)
4:08 AM
It's time to pour it all out!
:
All the anger, disappointment, sadness. These emotions are mixed up in me since I could remember when it actually started. Most probably, I didn't really able to let go of the anger I had when my brother left to Indonesia to meet his in-laws. The day when it all began, an addition to the family member! When you see your only brother being treated like a puppet being tied to a string and the string is being pulled by your 'sister-in-law'. The moment I had to call her 'kakak' just because she's my brother's wife really made me a liar! I had to do what I had to do just in consideration of my brother and of course my family. Respect has got to be earned, it's not something that drops from the sky. Treating her nice and all really made me guilty. I honestly do not hate her but I hate her behaviour! Yes maybe 'Kak Siti' was right! My brother loves teasing us sisters and not really that close to us. But what happened to me when I failed my exams in Secondary 3, my broher came up to me and asked 'Mariah, anyone bully you in school? Tell me I'll go to school!' For the first time, my brother said that to me! He tutored me in my weak subjects till I passed my exams. He's always the last person to close his door and sleep. I love having to see him walking back and forth to the kitchen. I don't care even if we don't conversations but just by knowing he's at home, makes us family. 19th of May 2008 marked a very heartbreaking day for me. The day that I feared will come has arrived! What I remembered was that I wanted to have my late lunch when my mother came into the room and asked, 'You don't want to help them pack?' I was like huh? What did she meant by that. Damn! I stood in the living room seeing my father standing outside brother's room saying that they are not stable yet and when they are, they can move out if not he'll face many problems. I saw 'Kak Siti's' expression and really pissed me off. She smirked while packing. I didn't see my brother though. Mum woke me up early that morning to help her look after Sheyrin in the living room. I was quite pissed as why out of my two sisters, my mum woke me instead. But I guess I don't regret it. I got the chance to spend with Sheyrin while 'Kak Siti' was hanging the babies clothes. She did mentioned that she wanted to clean the room. So I didn't thought much of it. I didn't know that most probably that it's a sign I guess. She was with her hp wherever she went. Most likely brother was on the side smsing. I don't know I should not make assumptions I guess. My mum told me, 'You must let them be independent. They wouldn't know the difficulties unless they go through it themselves.' I was asking my mum, 'Are you convincing me or yourself?' Our family was so happy with the arrival of Sheyrin. Now we've gotta part with her. Life is so unpredictable. Till now I didn't speak of it. All I did was irritating my mother and sisters as though nothing happened. I'm afraid I'll lose it if I speak of them.
