Saturday, July 21, 2007
8:16 PM
It's All Coming Back Again
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I have always thought marriages are not only sacred but being with someone whom you want to be with till you grow old. It is also not only base on love itself but also trust. I heard my colleague said that when you marry someone, that doesn't mean you marry the family. I believe that to a certain extend but eventhough it is so, that doesn't mean you treat the family 'transparently'. I have been angry with brother lately. Still figuring out why am I so mad at him. I know he has so much to deal with right now but I don't feel sorry for him. I felt so bad for feeling this way. He is my brother, how can I feel that way? Lately, Mummy close her door, giving excuses saying that she is feeling hot or she wants to rest for a while and whenever she tells me this, it'll be infront of bro's room. I'm thinking way too far now aren't I! Beginning to be like Mum now. Yesterday, reached home and seeing Mummy doing her project again. Mummy said proudly, " New Project." I just nodded and said " Cool." I thought she is making handicrafts to sell in the flea market. When she turned the frame around, it was brother's wedding pictures. I frowned and asked why she was doing that. She said that they do not have pictures of their wedding of their own in their room. In my heart, I said that they do not deserve to be treated nicely. I know that it is just a frame, but with the recent pictures hanging in Mum's room and I observed Mummy doing the frame, I can sense that she did it with love. The way Mum talked to brother the other day, she was full of anger and sadness, she love him so much, she cannot see him being treated the way he is being treated by his own wife. Being a woman is so tough, being a wife is even tougher but being a mother is unimaginably tough. It's like we're in the trance of time. The history of Mum and Dad's time. Does this happen during their time? I really wonder. I still have the anger at bro. I wonder how long this will end. It's affecting everyone here at home. Still have to keep the spirit up! Gambate!
Mariah told
her story ...
8:16 PM c",)