Sunday, June 01, 2008
4:40 AM
2 days after they left!
:
It was my younger sister's birthday. The scene when my brother handed my sister he gift kept playing in my head. I knew that it'll be last time we're ever going to have him in the family potrait when we have any occassion. When we were celebrating, I felt a great loss and I'm sure all felt the same. Especially my mum. She was teasing my dad and she said she had to if not, not fun! I know what she meant by that. Our very first celebration without our brother. I had to hold back my tears. Their room is left untouched. I was crazily hoping that time could go back and bring my brother back. But I find myself silly as I know that it's not going to happen. Just yesterday I wanted to sms my brother to ask how he is but snapped out of it thinking about the day that he left. I suddenly hated him. I found myself choosing to hate him despite knowing his own difficulties. I felt so childish. All I can say is that you can never cut family ties but you can only strenghten them. I love my family no matter what happens. I've asked GOD to forgive them for me as I hadn't had the heart to do so. Please GOD help us through this ordeal. Actually fact is that I miss you so much brother and of course Sheyrin too. Be happy wherever you are. My prayers are with you and your family.
Mariah told
her story ...
4:40 AM c",)